Why I love and hate where I live? – 9-month-old shot in Albuquerque

Police cars in front of the house.
My mind is still spinning as I constantly ask myself the question…why? Why would a father shoot his own daughter. Two days ago only five blocks from my house, a father shot his 9-month-old daughter in the head in revenge for his girlfriend being unfaithful to him. (Read the story here) I found out the vague information from one of my neighbors and friends as news helicopters where circling the neighborhood. My heart broke today as I read the full news story of what had happened.
I’ve known for awhile the dirty soul that lies within Albuquerque. My pastor has said that Albuquerque is a city that is so beautiful on the outside, but dirty when you take a closer look. I couldn’t agree more. We have the Sandia mountains, amazing sunsets, deep culture, incredible food, and stunning art. When you look closer though you see our high crime, fatherlessness, drug abuse, drunk driving, and list goes on and on.
But the dirty underside use to be a distant aspect of Albuquerque to me. That was until we moved into our neighborhood about a year ago. I love our neighborhood. It is a socio-economic, life stage, ethnic, and linguistic mixture of Albuquerque. The neighborhood has retired couples and newly weds buying their first homes. It has migrant workers that are trying to give their kids the life they never could. The school across the street from me is bilingual to accommodate english, spanish, and bilingual students. There is an active neighborhood association. One of the main bike routes for the city runs right in front of my house. It is also part of the International District of Albuquerque.
If I didn’t tell you anymore, you would think I lived in a picturesque suburban neighborhood. But when you take a closer look, you see something quite different. It’s called the International District because it use to be called the War Zone and the city didn’t think that helped with PR. The park across the street that is part of the elementary school is used by prostitutes at night to service Johns. This was made very clear to me when our Community Group pick up trash a few months ago and threw away over 15 condoms. While riding my bike, there have been a few times that I’ve nearly ran over hypodermic needles. I live less than a mile from a gay cowboy bar (I don’t even know how that works). Five cars were stolen in the neighborhood last month and now homicide can be added to the list.
I live in this weird tension of loving and hating the neighborhood that I live in. I love the progress and culture of my neighborhood, but hate the sin and depravity that is here. The thing that keeps me from selling my house and moving to suburbia though is Jesus. In a weird way, I love knowing that I live in a neighborhood in Albuquerque that needs the gospel the most.
Jesus said to them, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.” – Mark 2:17
Instead of getting mad when I find used condoms by the curb, I find hope. I know that I’m in a neighborhood that needs Jesus. I know the gospel gets to shine the brightest in the darkest of places. My heart is breaking for the family of the little girl that was shot. My hands are shaking in grief and anger as I type right now. I take peace in knowing that the full wrath of God will be poured out on the man that shot that beautiful little girl. But I ultimately hope that for the man to trust in Jesus so that wrath that he rightly deserves will be taken out on the cross.
Please pray with me for my neighborhood. That God would be glorified as family after family are changed by Jesus. Pray for me that God will open doors in this neighborhood for the gospel to be proclaimed. Pray that God would send and raise up more leaders to reach this neighborhood.
Spiritual Discipline: Bible Reading/Journaling – Four Tips for Bible Reading and Journaling

The two most basic disciplines of the Christian faith are scripture reading and prayer. In fact, it is hard to separate the two. God communicates to His people through His Word, and we communicate with Him through prayer. This week we are going to focus on reading our Bibles and journaling, and next week we’ll look at prayer.
Reading our Bibles and journaling our thoughts are helpful tools to cultivate our relationship with Jesus. Through scripture we are able to learn more about Jesus, have Him speak to our hearts, and be prepared to do His work. Here are some simple tips and steps for developing a habit of spending time in God’s Word.
Tip #1: Have “triggers.” Probably one of the hardest things to do is to get in the habit of opening your Bible. Leo Babauta of WritetoDone.com talks about putting triggers in your life to help you develop habits.
What’s a trigger? It’s the event that sets off your habit. For example, when I used to smoke, I had a number of triggers: I would smoke upon waking, when stressed, after a meeting, etc. When I wanted to change that habit, I had to change each trigger so that I had a new habit to replace smoking. Upon waking, for example, I would exercise instead. To create a new habit, you need to strongly associate your habit with a trigger. For example, let’s say you want to write in the morning — you might awake, use the bathroom, make your coffee, and then start writing. So making coffee is the trigger for writing, and using the bathroom is the trigger for making coffee, and waking is the trigger for using the bathroom. And as you wake every day, you have no problem. Choose a trigger that you know you’ll do every day, and then do your writing right after it, without exception.[i]
Triggers can be a very powerful tool for any spiritual discipline that you are trying to start.
Tip #2: Have all the right resources. It is suggested that when you sit down to spend time in the Bible, you should have the following items:
A Bible – Make sure it is a version that you can understand (different versions of the Bible are written at different reading levels). This guide uses the English Standard Version, but you might find another version easier to understand. Just go to your local bookstore and test a few out. See how easy they are to read and if you can understand the words that are being used.
A Journal – This is where you are going to write down your thoughts. You can find several different styles at your bookstore. Don’t be afraid to switch journals if one isn’t working for you. Use the first few pages to keep an index of what you are learning each day. This way you can look back and see what you have been learning.
A Reading Plan – This guide provides you with passages to read every day while you’re going through the lessons. When you’re done going through this guide, read whatever you want. Just have a plan. There are several different Bible reading plans online that will take you through the Bible in a year, or you could make it as simple as reading two chapters a day. Whatever you do, use a plan, or you’ll spend half your time trying to figure out what to read.
A Planner - It’s going to happen. You are going to be in the middle of having a wonderful time with God. Journaling your heart out…and you are going to remember that you’re out of milk. This is where your planner comes in handy. You can write down, “get milk” and go right back to your journaling. If you don’t have a planner, just use a scratch piece of paper. Otherwise, your time with God will be hijacked by random thoughts of things you need to do for the day.
Tip #3: Use S.O.A.P. This is an acronym for a Bible reading and journaling structure from Wayne Cordeiro.[ii] It stands for the following:
Scripture: Start off with the Bible. Read the verses that are on your plan for the day.
Observation: As you read, write down any observations that you have from the text. Use the questions, “Who is God?,” and “How do I enjoy Him?,” to focus your observations even better.
Application: Based on what you have read…what should you do? Try to make this practical and realistic. Set a goal for the day based upon your reading. Write it down and hold yourself accountable to it.
Prayer: Last but not least, spend some time in prayer to God. Confess and repent of any sins that were brought to light while you were reading. Spend time thanking God. Also spend some time in silence listening to God. Make note of these in your journal.
Tip #4: Keep it simple. The goal of your time with God is to try to grow closer to Him. It’s not to check off your list. Don’t add extra burdens to this focus, such as: “I have to make at least 15 observations.” “I have to write at least 5 pages in my journal.” “I have to pray for at least 45 minutes.” The goal is to spend time with God and to grow closer to Him. Do what it takes to do just that…the rest is just distractions, burdens, and religion.
[i] Leo Babauta, “10 Steps to Create the Habit of Writing,” www.writetodone.com, January 9, 2008, http://writetodone.com/2008/01/09/10-steps-to-create-the-habit-of-writing/.
[ii] Wayne Cordeiro, “Plenary Session 1” (presented at the Exponential Conference (National New Church Conference), Orlando, Florida, April 25, 2007).





